I have no idea what I intend to do, if shes interested, which is bad, since I have gotten the vibe she was at least somewhat interested at times. Also with how religious she is, I feel sex is most likely a pretty low priority for her in a relationship. I'd want to make it work if she was interested, but I honestly would prefer closure.
Also, I honestly have no issues with being alone. In a way it is true freedom.
I like knowing I have nothing to lose. If I wanted to, I could move across the country tomorrow. I could run off, and become a smuggler or mercenary or some shit, and would have no one to answer to for my actions other than myself.
Honestly I know having nothing to lose, means I can never be as good as someone who does. I just honestly don't care. I'm too big a fuck up to get something worth losing. So I'm content.
Obviously you don't yearn for your soul or a soul mate or even believe in souls mates to be saying that and all I can say is your a miserable man,
Why do you even like U2 music when it centres around the i motions of a married man, his passions,despair and love?
You assume I've always been like this, lol. One day I got up and realized how the world works. Guys like me work shitty jobs, which don't pay, go to shitty colleges, studying for a career they cant remember why they chose, and they sure as fuck don't get the girl, when they confess to her, that they've been crazy about her for years, in fact, I'll be lucky if she don't stick a restraining order on my ass.