Yes, I know I botched it. She looked confused, like she wanted some kind of clarification, like she could not tell if I was joking around, or if I was serious, what my intentions where. If I was just looking for a booty call, I would not be interested in her. Going off what I told you, does she sound like shes gonna let me in her pants fast? Hell, I would not be the least bit surprised if she was a virgin, and/or trying to wait for marriage.
Course I botched my follow up attempt as well, phrasing it as open ended as possible, around a time when she was most likely busy, and I know shes forgetful, so why should I be surprised she never got back to me on that, although it at least showed I was not trying for just a booty call. So if nothing else the follow up was at least fair as damage control, potentially.
I need to get over her. That's all there is to it. I need to hear her say she ain't interested in me, i don't care if she tells me to fuck off straight up, or she tells me, she likes me as just a friend. I need to know this, so I can walk away, and get on with my life. There is nothing there. Maybe there was at some point, but I lost it, and I have to live with that, but I can, and I will get on with my life, and either be content single, or find someone else, and I will know I did the right . This is real life, not some stupid movie. She ain't gonna tell me she has been into me for years, but was afraid to act, fall into my arms, get married, and have a house, a dog and kids. That shit just don't happen. I accepted this a long time ago.
I assume she realized it, given that her co workers tend to be nice to me. If she thought I was a sleaze she would have told them, and they would be colder to me.