FYI, you are basing your assumption around the idea she likes me. Her expression looked more confused thrown off anyway. I think if she thought that's what I was going for she would have looked offended/pissed. Granted, she could have thought that I was joking about that, which would actually make alot of sense. She knows I have a fairly dirty sense of humor, but am pretty decent most of the time, and her facial expression reminded me of how someone looks when they are trying to laugh at a joke they either don't get, or think is unfunny.
watched a movie ''once we're warriors'' pretty good movie
but i really shouldnt watch movies like that and stay positive
its gross negative thinking but had to watch it
im always affected by this, next i want to watch young blood see if its any good
bull f@#$ my folks let me watch that, maybe before i was born
feeling sick, dont know if its what i ate or something else, in the valley of deep shadow
aaron whatever you do dont leave it too long, just ask her mate
i notice your negative aaron i sometimes get very negative....when im like that everything i do that is positive or negative becomes negative and i cant breath and when its gone im left with the scars and hurt then when it returns it just esculates and destroy everything in its path then leaves again and im left on another level again searching for answers because the negative is very trivial and technical and whats worse is it has me thinking more than i should because of worry, its hell, it just doesnt just follow me but infects me, and changes my personality to a hard pressed bitter person and selfish because im trying to chear up and survive it, its no uninpenitrable shadow
it is to the point that everything that makes me feel safe like authority...and powers i can no longer trust but am in danger with them even no trust in the lord, and then its get me believing i deserve this and am in danger because im cursed and there is no mercy, then when it leaves, i feel safer but the scar and doubt remains because im unstable and not at home with myself...and the pain i go through has me questioning when im well as to why im going through this and it isnt all that impossible hence im scarred
and what is worse is my family dont understand and i have not been able to explain it to them to understand, hence this is the first time ive been able to tell someone properly with enough clarification hence why i need release and happiness and why i think about me all the time, searching for air, fresh air
Guess I'm gonna try again. Don't think she thinks I'm actually a sleaze (would be inconsistent with everything else she knows about me, plus my follow up attempt, and the fact that she still has me on Facebook), and all it can do is show I'm actually interested in her. Fuck, this is gonna suck.