1. I contacted my shrink.
  2. Was gonna see her, but decided not to. I'm good now.
  3. This shits more trouble than its worth.
  4. Originally posted by wtshnnfb01:Vets give the best years of their lives to killing people for their gov. Why should I feel bad, when they off themselves?

    Just my unpopular opinion of the day.
    Should you feel bad? That's your own choice.

    Should you feel anger towards your 'leaders' for unnecessary death? Probably.

    Do you feel anger towards your 'leaders' for unnecessary death? That's your call.
  5. I was in the middle of an extreme freak out when I wrote that.
  6. Perhaps it's best you take a step back from the keyboard when you "freak out"? Take a walk or do whatever it is that clears your head.
  7. The way my mind works is simple. If I go too long without something going wrong, I start worrying that something is gonna go wrong, at which point I massively overthink every single thing that crosses my mind, and get the urge to vent.
  8. maybe you should pick up writing a journal of sorts? might be easier to reflect on things, too.
  9. Tried. Spend too much time editing.
  10. You happy Buttons? I'm back to trying to bug her at work. Was not working today. In fact I dont think I've ever seen her working on a Sunday (would be be the least bit shocked if she has it marked as unavailable so she can go to church bullshit), but I tried.

    This is a waste of my time. I just don't care anymore. Already wasted this much time, why not a little more?

    Sooner she tells me to go to hell, the better off I am.

    Yes, I know, I should see my shrink.
  11. Don't edit your thoughts. Write them down, don't change them.

    The way my mind works is simple. If I go too long without something going wrong, I start worrying that something is gonna go wrong, at which point I massively overthink every single thing that crosses my mind, and get the urge to vent.

    My mind works the same. Worry about things when they happen.

    Are you of a spontaneous nature?
  12. i understand you must be very tired, stressed and uncomfortable with yourself in the situations you get yourself into but dont give up, stay strong, i believe it will be worthit in the end, and when you feel stress and tired, talk to your shrink, its still cool to do those things , they love you..
    beside endevoring a love life is no sin, so you should never give up unless she dont care, i would not give up..