well its a good idea to financially start thinking about yourself bc if you dont you could be up crapper creek if your grandma should pass away(sorry to be a downer) and if your not financially supporting yourself properly nobody out there is as quick to lend a helping hand financially etc and since you dont hear from your folks i thought i might tell you that..nicely
we cant always control consequence but we can help manage it
and thinking of consequence is a key to being successful in what you do personally
sorry i got the age wrong i knew it was 20's im terrible with names,dates and ages..too much going on upstairs to remember stuff like that..
at least you have your grandma..she seems nice
theres something about that generation which is art in itself sorry i cant find the word right now..had too many cups of tea and my anxiety is flaring up and stress but might have a drink to ease it..
she seems to me she wants to be friends is all i can say for now
you have my disease you think things over too much and stress over it.. you need to make your plans..keep to it and keep busy doing things to forget about your plans until the time arrives to act on your plans.. if that makes any sense ??thinking about it is going to ruin you if you over think things..
for example you plan to see her tomorrow..fine plan what you want to say ( what you need to say) then go out and do something else and distract yourself till the time comes to do what you want to do..but if you dont do anything else you will dwell on it and it could go negative for you since i notice you get negative and have your doubts not that its bad to doubt but doubt is a bit like an assumption which could be wrong and ruin you,,
okay then lets not talk about it.. you know what to do..
im really bored and sposed to be studying lol
but your keeping me busy which is good
but im sure its late where you are ??no ??