Nothing happened just said fuck it all. You asked for good news. Well I honestly have no clue what you where talking about. Went drinking to put shit in perspective.
Nothing happened just said fuck it all. You asked for good news. Well I honestly have no clue what you where talking about. Went drinking to put shit in perspective. It worked. Realized just how much stupid bullshit I put up with, without punching someone in the face. So fuck it all.
Yes, I'm still fucking drunk, but no I did not have a negative day. Just saw the truth. Also I still feel it was stupid of you to expect good news from me. I mean shit, under perfect conditions I'd say its a 50/50 proposition(most likely worse), not counting the fact I never get any fucking hours at work, plus the random probability of her being working on any given day when I get out of work, and me being able to catch her at that point, if she is free. I mean come on.
And before we get off the subject, its like a two part news matter with her. I mean first I'm telling her, if she asks me too, I'll go away, than if that goes well I'll try getting her number, than I'll try hanging out with her, than if that goes well I'll admit everything to her, and walk away. I mean shit, thats actually like 4 parts or some shit. Who the fuck cares? I already know she ain't interested.
i say it would be good for you to forget about it for now and go to bed since its 12.36 am over there
and if your not getting enough hours look for work somewhere else meanwhile
no need to be down because work may be disfunctional
I respect her too much to beg or kiss her ass, and last time I got rejected by a woman, started a chain of events that led to what I can only describe as a disasociative episode.
rejection is not the end of the world..aaron
your worth your weight in gold if one is not interested their loss obviously not your kettle of fish you just press on and something will one day eventually come along ,,that will be..
You fail to realize just how bad it got for me the last time.
I honestly hope, that when I tell her, I'll go away if she asks me to, that she'll just ask me to.(that felt like a drunk person sentence. Whatever.) She don't, shit get complicated. I like linear situations. Why the hell you think I'm planning on just walking away after I tell her, without waiting for any kind of reaction? Because I cant take this shit anymore.
with that said i cant stay on the net as im going out and have to pack my things
and be prepared to leave home for a few days
but ive got internet and radio but for next few hours its just radio..
so will catch up tomorrow
so chin up aaron your too hard on yourself and you have low selfesteem from what i gather and theres no need to be like that
your a funny bloke and you have made me laugh with some of your pms
chat tomorrow
