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  2. Keep going Kirsten.

    The main thing is that your head is healing, eyesight won't put your life in danger. It'll come back when your body starts to heal itself fully. One day we will see you on the forums again properly, hopefully with your sense of humour intact

    Schalke to win the 50th Bundesliga for Kirsten


    Stay strong
  3. We´ll wait you here the time you need to caomeback !!!
    Is nice to hear some of you , we need to know how are you !!!
    We miss you !!
    Everything is going to be fine !!!
  4. Originally posted by MacStripey:[..]


    I haven't been online, it just shows it like that when someone else here at home goes online via "my" Chrome

    I have no idea how much has been erased here lately or what is still there, I can hardly see the screen. But there are so many more important things out there, so who cares

    short update:

    - released from hospital on July 17
    - obviously carried a bacteria infection home with me, due to very bad hygienic treatment in hospital (welcome to Germany).
    - faced 5 weeks of 2 different antiotics treatment to avoid spreading of this infection on top of my head- Note: the stitches and two "holes" atop my head were still open so the bacteria could have entered my brain and endanger my life any moment -- go figure what I felt lately.
    - antibiotic treatment ended three days ago, wounds still healing. fingers crossed it will end well. so far looking good. at last.
    - first MRI check after surgery was done on Wednesday. I haven't seen the images yet, doctors fooled around with me and didn't show up for appointment after MRI (again, this is Germany, go puke), but a call next day let me know that they are okay with what the MRI has shown. I'm still waiting to get the dvd in the mail to take a look at my brain myself, but they say it's all well. I'll see.
    - next step will be appointment for radiation to give the remaining tumor in there shots to prevent it from growing again. Hooray.
    - other than that, my left eye is still damaged and closed. Right eye with sight of maybe 10 percent, so I can hardly see at all. Totally dependent on others, almost blind. Can't even drive a car, lucky if I don't bump into all and everyone here inside the house. Lying on the sofa 20 hours of the day, still physically weak like a retarded little fuzzy thing. The hydrocortison (necessary to keep the brain from swelling while sill in the healing process) brings back the weight I worked so hard on to lose after last year's surgery. Great thing.
    - I have no idea how long my recovery process will take. I must hope I'll get my left eye sight back one day, or my whole life is upside down. In a serious way, as for how it is right now, I cannot do any job anymore. Big gap on words here.
    - the football season has begun this weekend and I have a permanent chip card for all S94 home games. I cannot use any of this. All my concert tix are sold again by now. Last Wednesday my flight to Dublin took off and I wasn't aboard. Little things like these make you feel like sh** all the way, hard sometimes to keep your retarted head up and going. Worse of all, I cannot read anything on screen so u2start is lost for me atm, which is really one of the hardest things to face for me. Miss you guys. Sorry for any trypo here. Taöl soon again.


    You're on the right track Really not that much that I can say other than much love Miss ya, cannot wait 'til we get you back. You're great.
  5. Great to hear from you Kirsten, don't know if you can read our messages, but thanks a lot for keeping us informed. We want you back and won't take no for an answer, you will be fine and spamming the forums soon
  6. Originally posted by Ali709:Great to hear from you Kirsten, don't know if you can read our messages, but thanks a lot for keeping us informed. We want you back and won't take no for an answer, you will be fine and spamming the forums soon

    +1 lots of love, and strength!
  7. Pfff this is real heavy ....Hope it all becomes better ....and i hope someone can help you to read things for you ...Don't give up ...!!!
  8. Hope you're doing well, Kirsten! Thought about you today. Miss you.
  9. Sending lots of love and strength to you, Kirsten. There's no struggle too great that it can't be overcome - there will always be hope. Thinking of you. x
  10. you may forgive me for only a short entry, and before I begin, thank you so much for your constrant positive thoughts and well wishes!!! --but this today has just turned into my personal 9/11. Apologies from my heart for using this term, it is not appropriate by far. But still.

    I have been to a professor today who is a specialist as oculist. It was meant as routine control of my eyes (the left one still closed and unusable). After 4 hours of tests of all kinds, nearly towards the end of our talk about how to proceed with treatment (radiation, reha, whatever), I took the chance to ask her if she could take a moment to look at my MRI scans from August 22 and explain at least one image to me, as no one of the surgeons has done so far yet, so I get an idea of how things look inside my brain now, after the surgery was done 9 weeks ago.

    She looked at the disc, her face went through some change -- to make a long and hard hour very short:
    she immediately called the professor at the clinic the surgery was done. Things have gone heavily wrong there, I will tell more after we will have met him tomorrow inthe afternoon there to clear things. But obviously has a surgeon done my surgery who was NOT allowed to do it, who was NOT able enough (word?) to do my kind of difficult case, who would have HAD to tell the professor at the clinic about my case so the prof would have done the surgery himself -- and obviously things have gone wrong during the surgery, therefor my closed eye (due to a maybe permanently cut nerv) and......... it seems the tumor that is still inside does not look the way it should. Maybe this cretin did mess things up. maybe whatever, mayve it is already growing again - which should be happening after ten, twenty years, not 9 weeks.

    Tomorrow afternoon I will get to know more. From the professor. But for gods sake..... why?!??! why me? why why why? what have I done wrong in my life?

    more whenever I know more. I wished I could punch someone. Something. I wished I could cry. I wished...anything. An idiot messed things up and tried to hide it from his prof.Another surgery seems to be right ahead. I have only one life. Just one. Just why.

    sorry. not short like I meant to. More then after tomorrow, I guess.
  11. That is not on. These people are supposed to be professionals, lives in their hands and they mess it up? You really don't deserve any of this Kirsten. Disgusting. Thank God you asked though or things could've gotten worse. It's obviously no consolation for one idiot messing things up.

    All of the shit that's been thrown at you recently and you get news like this. I really do feel for you. And I am angry at this surgeon myself, ridiculous.

    Let's hope your eye can be fixed and let's hope that once and for all, they'll fix what went wrong and you'll be clear of this once and for all.
  12. I'm so sorry Kirsten. You should obviously get a lot of money in damages, a whole lot. And he should get all kinds of licenses pulled. Wasn't this the doctor who performed the first surgery too? Maybe he messed up the first one too. (One of my favorite singers, Russell Watson, had two surgeries because the first one wasn't done properly and the tumor grew out.) Anyway, this really makes me angry and a bit sad too. That surgeon should feel happy I'm not living anywhere near him in Germany. I'd give him hell.

    And then of course, priority one that I'm a bit sorry for kind of forgetting in my anger, that some good doctors will make you better To a better future! Loads of love as always.
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