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  1. Cool, she's here again, was hoping to hear from you soon!
    Be strong!
  2. I don't like this topic as it means I'm talking about illness. I hate that So I'll keep the update short.

    Fact is, the surgery on July 5 was screwed up- The 4 months that now followed brought me a lot of health problems which messed with my body. Still fighting to recover but some damage is done that will remain.
    The tumour that is still there is too big in size to be treated with radiology (to keep it from growing again). So on December 21 I will have to see the professor again - to make an appointment for another brain surgery in January. The same shit will start all over again. Counting down the weeks.

    That's all. I know some of you are still waiting for some pms. Getting to it as soon as possible. Love you guys, you know who you are
  3. Hope everything turns out well for you
  4. That sucks big time, Kirsten. I hope that on the 21th of december you finally get to hear what is going to be the next step and that the surgery in january will be positive.


    A pretty long time waiting now, I hope you find something in which you can loose yourself and forget a bit of the shit that happened to you the last year.

    Stay strong
  5. Love you too, Kirsten. You will get through this.
  6. Kirsten , nice to hear some form you ..... so sure you will have a great 2013 !!
  7. Always good hearing from you Kirsten! You're about to get another chance, and I'm sure you will take this chance with your heart and soul and will be fine again soon! We're always with you friend, and you are always in our hearts! Stay positive and keep walking on!

  8. Originally posted by bartajax:That sucks big time, Kirsten. I hope that on the 21th of december you finally get to hear what is going to be the next step and that the surgery in january will be positive.


    A pretty long time waiting now, I hope you find something in which you can loose yourself and forget a bit of the shit that happened to you the last year.

    Stay strong


    Bart, thanks for your encouraging words.
    So far, after 4 months since I left hospital, I still haven't found the right thing I can loose myself in to forget this crap for a little while. U2 would do but I can't listen to any music longer than maybe 15 minutes, it messes up my head *sucks*. I'm a born book reader but can't read any book anymore, not enough eye-sight left. I had to give up my Irish Independent, my beloved daily newspaper link to the country I love the most *sucks, too*. I can't write any stuff nor tell my friends to pick me up to go out for some distraction, not enough physical strength. No concerts. No pubs. Two weeks ago, I had a "wtf I'll just do it" phase and called a friend to go to the Arena with me. I was there for the game Schalke vs Nuernberg. I couldn't see a thing of the game and I collapsed on the way back to the car after the game was over. So my football addiction is off limits as well.- A long list of negative things, you see, and at the moment I have no strength left in me to keep myself going, to push myself onward. It's certainly just a phase, but with health going down and down again and again, at this moment I've lost the strentgth to keep my head up. Not cool at all, and so not me, but what can you do. Here's to better times.

    /long senseless blabla
  9. Bart spoke for many of us - this indeed sucks big time, and we'll all be very close to you these long weeks... I guess the suggestion to find something distracting is a good one, although I realise this is more easily said than done! Perhaps audio books might be an option: no need to read, and you could stop when you're too tired to listen... I know health will go up, and up, and up... but I realise these weeks are really challenging. We're here and always will be... and maybe U2 will be with us sooner than we think. They are being very quiet, which hopefully means they're up to something... In the meanwhile, we've got 15-17 more U2360 songs to sip, little by little A very big hug, stay strong!!!

    Julien
  10. I couldn't put it better ^ My mom had a surgery today, she's fine now, hope you will be soon too Keep being strong.
  11. Julien, I still owe you an answer to your pm and comment above, will get to that soon
    ~~~

    short update:

    - developed some additional health issues due to all the medicine I had/have to take duribg the last 4 months

    - had an ECG & ultrasound of my heart today as there have come up problems as well --> heart is alright

    - Dec 10th: complete round of check-up at oculist (eyesight malfunction etc, field of vision, etc). Happy 3 hours.

    - Dec 21st: appointment with the professor at clinic in Duisburg --> discuss status and... set date in early January for surgery #3

    - xmas and NYD
  12. Alright, this may seems very inappropriate at first, but try to think about it. Becoming an adult, I start to worry more and more. When you have a blessed life, you can worry about very little things. I found solace in these lyrics: even if you don't own anything, there are always the free things to enjoy, like the canyons, tuna fleers and bedouin fires. Eventually, after the flood all the colours will come out. The whole album deals with it, Stuck in a Moment, Walk On, Kite, Grace and even Elevation.

    tldr: Don't think about the bad things when there are beautiful things to enjoy.

    The heart is a bloom, shoots up through stony ground
    But there's no room, no space to rent in this town
    You're out of luck and the reason that you had to care
    The traffic is stuck and you're not moving anywhere
    You thought you'd found a friend to take you out of this place
    Someone you could lend a hand in return for grace

    It's a beautiful day, don't let it get away

    You're on the road but you've got no destination
    You're in the mud, in the maze of her imagination
    You love this town even if that doesn't ring true
    You've been all over and it's been all over you

    See the world in green and blue
    See China right in front of you
    See the canyons broken by a cloud
    See the tuna fleets clearing the sea out
    See the bedouin fires at night
    See the oil fields at first light
    And, see the bird with a leaf in her mouth
    After the flood all the colours came out

    Touch me, take me to that other place
    Reach me, I know I'm not a hopeless case

    What you don't have you don't need it now
    What you don't know you can feel it somehow
    What you don't have you don't need it now
    It was a beautiful day
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