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Originally posted by emiel:well this is what i did when i heard i have Cancer ....i put it in a invisible suitcase put it next to me.... and decided to leave the cancer
in de suitcase and go on with the life i have now!!! that's why i stay so positive ...i just want to WALK ON the time that is stil there ! we just don't know when it ends ...my other point is and some people think it's wierd ..i am not afraid to die ..when it's my time i got to go...end of the story...it sounds heard for some others but that is how i think ..when they can not help me anymore it will take me a view months but when it works it could be 2 years and the nurse yesterday said to me it could be 5 or more ...we will see what the future brings ... i life right now and i feel pretty good but every day is different ....this is what i got to do i leave the suitcase all behind..and walk on!

goodness, Emiel, reading your words makes me me realize you are so much stronger than me

very seriously, I thought after 3 brain surgeries and now a complete radiotherapy I know it all, but I am wrong ... you know so much more and deal better with time and life than me. My chance to think about things and reconsider what really matters in life. Thank you for posting your view on things and life. So precious, I mean it. I wished I could thank you more. But for what I can , I say thank you

MacStripey

11 years

everyone else, I'll get back to your comments / pms soon, anytime soon as the eyesight allows it

emiel

11 years

Thanks Kirsten ...i hope it Will help you a lot ...i just want to live day by day and i want to look forward ...and do the things i want to do ....and that's what i do ... I have to keep strong for my self and my wife and children ...but i also have my bad day's and i am sometimes very tired ...but hey what Will bring tomorrow ....every day is different....
Today is a great day so i go out to the cinema tonight....with my wife but tomorrow i could be the whole day in bed ....and feel sick ...but Kirsten keep strong ....! Look day by day ...If you have some Energy go out for a walk ..only if it's for 10 minutes a day ..look how beautiful the nature is ...oké i live next to the forest..and a park ...i am so happy when the sun shines and the birds sings....and i love trees and clouds in the sky ..........i look different to so Many things in live right now ...and you can do that to Kirsten ...enjoy it !

Buttons

11 years

You both are such an encouragement to us as well I need you to know!
I think that Emiel, you really posses a good frame of mind to be in,
whilst I see Kirsten as strong in her own way but both of you are positive,
which I admire,
if it were me I would be worried every day about silly things,
but thats just me.
But it is sometimes best to stay positive but accept the worse kind of scenareo, that way you get you answers.
Worse kind of scenario is if I die, the answer God is gracious so as to ressurrect me one day its Christ promise.
So what hurts is who will miss me and what I leave behind the sorrow.
But remember the time you have is now, treasure it like you are Emiel with the nice walks and nature, and like you too Kirsten losing yourself into U2 music.
So at the end of the day you beat the negative, and hey it probably may not happen anyway, and you can put this as a whole new lifes experience,
and be the best shoulder for others who go through what your going through.
My Aunt has cancer too,
she is battling ovarian cancer and it has gone into her thyroids as well,
and although she has her week moments she is nothing but joking all the time,
she is still making us laugh lol
But I think you all can pull through.
Its amazing how the power of the mind does sometimes have a say in your health and fight.
So love your positive ways,
your both a great admiration in your own personal different ways.

emiel

11 years

Thank you Buttons ....I also listen a lot of music ...Peter gabriel, kate Bush , Enya, Loreena Mckennit ,Enigma and of course a lot of U2 ...it helps me to come to myself ...and let my mind go empty so i can think clear ...since i have Chemo i sometimes forget a lot of things. I throw words by each other ...so music helps me to relax and let my mind stay strong ....

JuJuman

11 years

Indeed, thanks to you both, your words and thoughts mean so much to all of us!

emiel

11 years

Wel THE Chemotherapy dos his work the cancer on my liver is shrinking so that's good news. We continiue with the next tree chemotherapy's and after 9 weeks we see what happens. But for now good news....we just wait and see....

patou2

11 years

Originally posted by emiel:Wel THE Chemotherapy dos his work the cancer on my liver is shrinking so that's good news. We continiue with the next tree chemotherapy's and after 9 weeks we see what happens. But for now good news....we just wait and see....

you make my day

JuJuman

11 years

Originally posted by emiel:Wel THE Chemotherapy dos his work the cancer on my liver is shrinking so that's good news. We continiue with the next tree chemotherapy's and after 9 weeks we see what happens. But for now good news....we just wait and see....

This is really good news -- all very best wishes Emiel!!

fabian

11 years